I thought you will light a candle
And say a prayer for me
However the light has dimmed and gone
Half the world assumes
While the other half suspects
Why is everything so wrong?

Some days I can't believe 
Some days I'm on my knees
Trying hard to be heard

I was your anger
And you were my fear
Now that it's over
Of course it's so clear
But you were no angel
And I was no sin
Somehow I can't let you go

Half the world is sleeping
While the other half dreams 
I close my eyes
and think of the words you said
Maybe my intentions have been misunderstood
Myabe your expectations exceeds me
However we both know we are so beautifully wronged

And laughter is my soul's release
But we're not smiling anymore
Can't we try to win this peace
'Cause we're never gonna win
Never gonna win this "war"

Some days I can't believe 
Some days I'm on my knees
Hoping I belong

The environment encircling abundant alcohol, drugs and cigarettes approaches as time draws closer. With the right influence and freedom, these associated "necessities" are hard to refrain from, especially with one's curiosity and greed.  Every second spent there is every less peace he get. Each day is depleted with fear and each night exhausted with anxiety.

Sigh.

Scars are souvenirs you never lose
The past is never far
Did you lose yourself somewhere out there?

Fags, booze and playing the invisible....

ain't it sad to that life is more than who we are

one after another.

*Gvie me the strength i need*

pls....

I have tried and failed. The world's full of contridictions,hatred and doubt. Or should i say this place. Maybe this place just isnt right for me. Or maybe nothing will ever go right.

Step one you say we need to talk
She walks you say sit down it's just a talk
She smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As she goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let her know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past her defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told her all along
And pray to God she hears you
And pray to God she hears you

As she begins to raise her voice
You lower yours and grant her one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
She will do one of two things
She will admit to everything
Or she'll say she's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

And I would walk 500 miles
And I would walk 500 more
To be the man who walked 1,000 miles
To fall down at your door

Light up, light up

As if you have a choice

I know you'll make it anywhere

Even if you cannot hear my voice.

Women are Angels, Men are Devils

Why do some men try so hard to be honest and straight-foward when all their efforts are being filtered and erased? Somehow equally made by God among genders are bullshit. Sad to say it, but its true. Men who sleeps around with women are seen as horny bastards. As much as it is true, it does not make any difference to the sluts that sleeps with them. A girl drinking and dancing at a club during weekends can be judged by a student just having her fun after a long week at school. On the other hand, a guy having the same fun is seen as a player who cannot wait to get laid. We men are seen as possesive creatures whereelse women are protrayed as innocent creatures. Guys having female friends to talk to now and then stirs jealousy within their girlfriends. However in a vice-versa situation, we men are seen as over-reacting.

Men to Women Dictionary:

Women can have all the fun in the world and do as they please with other guys and we must not be jealous nor ignorant.

*Woman' s translation: jealous = possesive. ignorant = does not care.*

Men must always be there for women to relied on but must scram as soon as their duties are done.

*Woman' s translation: Come immediately when you are in need and get lost as soon I am done.

Women can sleep around for the men are always at fault regardless of the situation.

*Woman' s translation: It does not take two hands to clap"

Women are protected treasures. They went through child labour and menstruation.

*Hell yea like we do not have phyical hard labour and laying down our lives for you in times of war and confict.*

Conclusion:

Men, even if there is no point trying so hard because the woman does not appreciate, remember and understand the things you do, you still got to continue till death gets the upper hand of you. Please them as much as you can even though nothing seems to satisfy them. Be at their side as much as possbile even though to them you seem be to never there. Patience will be pulled. Sanity will be stretched. You may seem like a loser and yes, you might even feel like one. But thats how a relationship runs. You have to work hard to feel loved, to be trusted and as much it hurts to be someone you are not. Choices are forbided. Give but do not take. For because as Men, we have nothing to take.